under the stars (kris-tmas mix)
Kristian
its 11:10 central european time. next day. i just watched for 10 minutes a video of homeless people in l.a. half n@ked barefoot walking through town, mental ill. having no medical support, no home, nothing to eat, but a jo!nt to smoke as it is legal in the us of a. and then i saw the veterans park. the tents and all these people denying the safe place of the veterans hospital, because they take drugs and drink…
so i guess in america you got the right to fck up your life too. like in germany. and noone is able to force you to change your life. if you are in the mental state to do it by yourself.
the difference to germany is. in germany mental ill people get their medicaments their therapists and doctors for nothing. they dont have to pay to for it. and they get a 2 room apartement a paid rent and some 500 bucks to live.
and everything i know about german mental ill people. they are not taking their medicine as they should. to be sane, to live a normal life. they paint ball pen pictures of n@ked women screaming in a napalm explosion and get a donated arts prize for it. or they come together in self help groups where they are lamenting about their hard life with their mental illnesses…
but they are fcking up their lifes because of the non taking of the medicine as they should.
psychiatry is the most advanced medical part of the medical universe since 50 years. 70 years ago the n@zis killed mental ill people who were wasted laying and screaming in jails for mental ill people. and even in the 50 ies and 60 ies the mental ill people were in jail like psychiatric hospitals were they drowned in their mental illness. in the seventies some new groundbreaking medicaments were coming into the market and the most of the inmates of these psychiatric prisons were left to live at home as they were suddenly able to…
the whole game changed. now it was like: you take your pills and you live a normal life…you dont take your pills you will lose your mind and end up again in the hospital, where they build you up with medicaments until you are halfway normal and leave you to go home again…and the spiral begins from the beginning…
as dr bliss said…in germany and europe everybodys got the right to fck up his life…we are not allowed to force them to take their pills…
and so a schizophreniac like me, who was in 17 years only one time hospitalized is in the minority. and i wouldnt end in the hospital if i wasnt smoking weed and grass and taking coc@ine like a maniac. but i was 30 years and my s3xu@l hormons were leading me to that path of life. as it is normal in these years of life of young people whose main motivation is created by their s3xual hormons…
ok i did miracles because i took half of my pills so i was half way mental ill and half way sane…but then i ended up in hospital for 3 weeks. and i left the place still mentally deranged….until i took the right dose of my pills again and everything was gone 10 years ago…
i know im doing music and its fcking awesome and im able to play with my doctors and therapists and all the people around me to do what i want from them to do for me…
and i know that my illness is the only mental malady which an animal cant have. schizophrenia. while all other mental disorders people go to their therapists for cure, a house pet can have too…
i know that schizophrenia is the black hole of medical knowledge…
i know all this…
but i also know…
if i was living in the us of a. i would be walking half n@ked barefoot through the streets talking to myself and eating r@ts…
this is insane…
so good morning europe and good night america
…
and for now im enjoying my round up from monsanto the weed and grass killer…my anti psychotics pills and @lcohol…
knowing deep in my heart that im a gifted person blessed by the stars above with a biography which makes matrix look like rainbow colored flag movie whose main and only question is the question which makes all woken people spin around…:
what s3xual preference do you have and what does that mean to society?:)
as these rainbow colored flags are waving on the billboards above the streets of l.a. while the mental ill people are walking half n@ked and barefoot through the streets of l.a. like a zombie army…
and now im listening to hey little girl the antipodeans vs icehouse extended mix…
because im leaving all my remixes for the singer who made the acapella…
:)
so i guess in america you got the right to fck up your life too. like in germany. and noone is able to force you to change your life. if you are in the mental state to do it by yourself.
the difference to germany is. in germany mental ill people get their medicaments their therapists and doctors for nothing. they dont have to pay to for it. and they get a 2 room apartement a paid rent and some 500 bucks to live.
and everything i know about german mental ill people. they are not taking their medicine as they should. to be sane, to live a normal life. they paint ball pen pictures of n@ked women screaming in a napalm explosion and get a donated arts prize for it. or they come together in self help groups where they are lamenting about their hard life with their mental illnesses…
but they are fcking up their lifes because of the non taking of the medicine as they should.
psychiatry is the most advanced medical part of the medical universe since 50 years. 70 years ago the n@zis killed mental ill people who were wasted laying and screaming in jails for mental ill people. and even in the 50 ies and 60 ies the mental ill people were in jail like psychiatric hospitals were they drowned in their mental illness. in the seventies some new groundbreaking medicaments were coming into the market and the most of the inmates of these psychiatric prisons were left to live at home as they were suddenly able to…
the whole game changed. now it was like: you take your pills and you live a normal life…you dont take your pills you will lose your mind and end up again in the hospital, where they build you up with medicaments until you are halfway normal and leave you to go home again…and the spiral begins from the beginning…
as dr bliss said…in germany and europe everybodys got the right to fck up his life…we are not allowed to force them to take their pills…
and so a schizophreniac like me, who was in 17 years only one time hospitalized is in the minority. and i wouldnt end in the hospital if i wasnt smoking weed and grass and taking coc@ine like a maniac. but i was 30 years and my s3xu@l hormons were leading me to that path of life. as it is normal in these years of life of young people whose main motivation is created by their s3xual hormons…
ok i did miracles because i took half of my pills so i was half way mental ill and half way sane…but then i ended up in hospital for 3 weeks. and i left the place still mentally deranged….until i took the right dose of my pills again and everything was gone 10 years ago…
i know im doing music and its fcking awesome and im able to play with my doctors and therapists and all the people around me to do what i want from them to do for me…
and i know that my illness is the only mental malady which an animal cant have. schizophrenia. while all other mental disorders people go to their therapists for cure, a house pet can have too…
i know that schizophrenia is the black hole of medical knowledge…
i know all this…
but i also know…
if i was living in the us of a. i would be walking half n@ked barefoot through the streets talking to myself and eating r@ts…
this is insane…
so good morning europe and good night america
…
and for now im enjoying my round up from monsanto the weed and grass killer…my anti psychotics pills and @lcohol…
knowing deep in my heart that im a gifted person blessed by the stars above with a biography which makes matrix look like rainbow colored flag movie whose main and only question is the question which makes all woken people spin around…:
what s3xual preference do you have and what does that mean to society?:)
as these rainbow colored flags are waving on the billboards above the streets of l.a. while the mental ill people are walking half n@ked and barefoot through the streets of l.a. like a zombie army…
and now im listening to hey little girl the antipodeans vs icehouse extended mix…
because im leaving all my remixes for the singer who made the acapella…
:)